Am i doing this right?

back home at 7am. went in my rented double storey semi-D house just to find out that all 14 of my housemates are sleeping. i tried to sleep, but to no avail. so here i am, writing nonsense. well not exactly nonsense. something crossed my mind moments ago while i was killing myself with marlboro.. these lines keep haunting me till now..

'kay mana nak makan dgn kita lagi...'
'kay mana nak merempit dgn kita lagi..'
'kay mana nak balik rumah lagi...'
'kay mana nak dota dgn kita lagi, baik kay main sms...'
'aku dtg lepak rumah ko, ko lak takde kay..'

and this one really2 caught my attention, as its from my closest friend in penang;

'di manakah kay yg ku kenali dulu. kay yg rockstar,
kay yg keras hati, kay yg sempoi'

sighhhh.... i dont know what im supposed to do. i thought i have things under control. i did. but when did things started to go wrong?? when?? why?? how?? urghhh... it was very2 enjoying, fun, happy but now, its gradually becoming sort of a burden to me.

i cant believe im saying this, but i think i need help..