Still waiting

woke up around 6.30am...
went straight to the hall..
slide the door open,
and its not there..

wanted to go for 8am class when i realize i've no transport.
followed syed to class..
when back home after class,
its still not there..

i guess i still cant get over it..

The day it all changed

19 oktober 2009
6.22 am

wqx 3347 hilang..
aku takkan lupa hari ni.

kalau aku jumpa laa wqx dgn tuan baru,
masuk hospital laa dia..

sial..

Am i doing this right?

back home at 7am. went in my rented double storey semi-D house just to find out that all 14 of my housemates are sleeping. i tried to sleep, but to no avail. so here i am, writing nonsense. well not exactly nonsense. something crossed my mind moments ago while i was killing myself with marlboro.. these lines keep haunting me till now..

'kay mana nak makan dgn kita lagi...'
'kay mana nak merempit dgn kita lagi..'
'kay mana nak balik rumah lagi...'
'kay mana nak dota dgn kita lagi, baik kay main sms...'
'aku dtg lepak rumah ko, ko lak takde kay..'

and this one really2 caught my attention, as its from my closest friend in penang;

'di manakah kay yg ku kenali dulu. kay yg rockstar,
kay yg keras hati, kay yg sempoi'

sighhhh.... i dont know what im supposed to do. i thought i have things under control. i did. but when did things started to go wrong?? when?? why?? how?? urghhh... it was very2 enjoying, fun, happy but now, its gradually becoming sort of a burden to me.

i cant believe im saying this, but i think i need help..

Kam Heong really is special

the raya week. only a week. it was thursday morning when i thought that im not going to see my frens before i go back to penang on saturday. but at around 2 pm, zai called me and ask me to come to his house, ada gathering sikit. bukh, ansar, fa and i went there around 5(agak lambat) and wallawei, the geng is still there.. imran, zai, azn, acap, edi, azman, hazim, hariz, hameer, foo soon, matt, farah, ieka and aishah. lepak there, sembang2, kena soal siasat dgn the girls and then we went raya at hameer's place. ribena and moist cake... seeeeedap... then around 8, imran, azman, fa and edi drop by my house for raya. after that we went karaoke haha best sial.. but the best part is after karaoke... zai wanted to tapau kam heong at ss2, we went laa together teman him. sampai2 je... guess who?? izhar, zul and adrie!! its been freaking while since we met them. we hang out at kam heong till 1, and to our surprise izhar belanja wei!! (kalau tau order mahal2 sket) best dow jumpa balik izhar. ingat dh lost contact dh.. what a day, perfect in my eyes. zai, thx for making that call and invite me to ur house, or else i wouldn have met those people, thx zai..